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paradiseblossoms) wrote2012-12-16 10:34 pm
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Because we're terrible people (okay, this was mostly my idea).
A log in which a great deal of time has passed, Kurama (
minamino_shuuichi) and Shoshanna have somehow met again, and Kurama hasn't aged a day.
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"Of course," he says softly, and he thinks to himself - of course she isn't concerned with such inane things as vanity or appearance. Time must have dulled his memories, for him to think so little of her.
He would understand such self-doubt though - understand it well. He's had more than a few such moments himself, where everything seems like it must have been some kind of dream, something he imagined while asleep or unconscious on one of their many missions (which never seem to stop, despite Yusuke no longer being the official Detective for the Spirit World).
Or perhaps he just thinks of those moments like that because it made it easier, over these long years. Easier to think that he'd dreamed up this amazing woman than to remember that he'd lost her, probably for good.
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It's difficult to tear her eyes away from their surroundings, new and unfamiliar as they are, but she does, looking up at Kurama with curiosity in her expression.
"So, tell me. What is it you've done, all these years?"
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"Not much of interest, to be quite honest," he admits. "For a time, I worked with my stepfather's company, until my looks made that impossible. Since then, I've just been moving from job to job, city to city - I can never really afford to stay in one place long enough to put down roots before people begin to get suspicious."
"It's been...lonely," he says, and he's hit with a strong sense of deja vu - because hadn't she always been the one he told everything to, the one who could always make him admit to whatever he was keeping so carefully concealed from everyone else? "And very sad. To know that you will outlive...almost everyone you've ever cared about - it's a horrid burden."
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"I am...sorry. Nobody should have to bear that burden."
Her voice is soft, but not tentative. She's gotten better with emotion.
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"Still," he says softly, watching her carefully for a reaction, "I've never quite figured out what hurts more - leaving, or being left behind."
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"I cannot possibly express the regret I feel, that I waited this long to find you."
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He should have gone with them, he thinks sometimes, alone with his thoughts in the dark of night. He should have left this all behind him. But then he thinks of all the things he would have missed - of this, standing here with one last chance to see the woman he met in a dream - and he knows (or perhaps only hopes) that it is all worth it, in the end.
"But you came," he says softly, "which was more than I could ever do. I'm not surprised - you always were the strong one."
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She sighs.
"Would that I were stronger. Would that I could turn back time and come sooner."
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And then he shakes his head, gently, so as not to dislodge her hand, and opens his eyes to smile at her again.
"No," he says, soft but firm. "Never wish to be anything but what you are. Because you are a treasure - I think more than anyone I have ever known."
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"Thank you. I wasted far too many years thinking you were something from a dream. I'm certainly not going to waste any more time."
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"It's easier, isn't it? Thinking it was all just...a dream, or a fantasy - something unreal, something fictional - than having to really cope with the idea that it was real, and that the loss was that much harder." He laughs softly, really nothing more than a short exhale. "It was for me."
He doesn't know what happens now. Things are different between them, as much as neither of them wants it to be so, but there's one thing he does know - he doesn't think he could stand to lose her again. So he reaches up with one hand to grasp hers, nodding slightly.
"You're right, as always. You're here now, and there's been plenty of time lost in the meantime. That's enough dwelling on the past, don't you think?
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"Quite right, ma chere. Always ready with a word of wisdom, aren't you?"
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"I try," he says humbly. "And I imagine these long years of existence have got to be worth something, haven't they?"
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"I married, you know. We ran a bookshop together in Paris, many years after the war ended."
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"Did you?" he asks, and it's not really disbelief in his voice as much as it is...pleasant surprise, really. He'd known, even all those years ago, that she'd faced a great deal of loss already, had been questioning whether or not she was capable of giving her heart away again. He finds he's glad to know that she could - that she did. "That's wonderful. Really."
"A bookshop, though?" he asks mildly, trying to tread cautiously over what he's not sure is entirely safe ground. "I wouldn't have thought you'd be able to tear yourself away from the theater."
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"Mm." She can sense a caution in his tone, but it's unnecessary. She's had long enough to come to terms with the events of the forties, after all. "Normally, that might be the case, but my cinema burned to the ground. I worked in other cinemas for awhile, as I wasn't able to afford to build or buy a new one, but it was never the same, I'm afraid."
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The smile fades a bit as she continues, but doesn't leave entirely - her tone is comfortable enough to let him know that things are all right, and he's glad for it. Still, he can't quite stop the apology that follows.
"I'm sorry to hear that."
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"It's not so bad. I've had a long time to get over it, after all." Her brow quirks, and then she adds, "The French government gave me a pretty little medal for my trouble, too." Not that it did her much good, sitting on a shelf, but it was better than being court-martialed for war crimes, or convicted for arson.
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He wonders why he never heard about her, then - why none of this ever came to light in the news, or elsewhere. He supposes Japan is still very much isolated from the rest of the world (despite any impressions to the contrary), and that unless he'd gone looking for that information, he would likely have never found it. And why go looking for information on someone you weren't even sure ever existed?
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"And anyway, that was a very long time ago. Hardly relevant to anyone, I'd think." She shoots Kurama a sidelong smile, sly, quick.
"You know, I find it very difficult to picture you working in an office somewhere." After all, she had seen what he truly was, beneath the skinny redhead he appeared to be. Sometimes she prefers to think of him in his true form, fantastical as it was.
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Or, not since he started doing it for the Spirit World, at least - if he were still freelancing, or working for the Demon World side of the border patrol, he'd likely be allowed some looting on the side.
"And no matter how often I try to retire from that particular position, it never seems to take," he says wryly, but then shrugs again.
"Still, I suppose one never knows when the balance of power in the Makai is going to shift, and the next ruler might not be quite so concerned with demon-human relations. And, technically," he says, with an almost sheepish grin, "I think I'm still on parole."
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"No, I suppose it wouldn't be. And I would say I was surprised, but..."
But she definitely isn't.
Suddenly, Shoshanna seems to realize something, and she pauses for a moment mid-stride.
"Forgive me, but I've just remembered--I haven't found a hotel yet. I don't suppose you'd be willing to assist me in finding somewhere suitable?"
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It's a quieter part of town, but there always seem to be taxis to be had, so Kurama flags one down and helps her into it, closing the door behind her before circling around to the other side and climbing in himself. If the driver finds it curious - this pairing of a young twenty-something Japanese man with an older, foreign woman - well, Kurama hardly thinks it is likely not the strangest thing he's ever seen in the course of his job, and when they reach their destination, Kurama pays him enough extra that he thinks the driver will just...forget all about it.
He takes her to a hotel - not quite American and not quite Japanese, but clean and quiet and with its own certain charm. The floors are wooden, and there's a proper bed (at least, insofar as it's not simply a mattress on the floor, which he thinks she will appreciate), but there's also a small, raised portion of tatami matting, with a low table set in the center. The staff is kind and attentive, and most of them speak English (well enough, anyway), and it's the work of not very long at all for the girl who led them to the room to bow her way back out and shut the door behind her, leaving them alone again.
He turns to her, a questioning look on his face, but he thinks he doesn't need to say much aloud, because - well, because he hardly ever did.
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"I was tiring of people staring. For all I've heard about the Japanese being polite, I felt an awful lot of eyes on me."
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"Politeness comes in many forms here," he agrees, nodding. "You're hardly likely to actually catch anyone staring, for instance, but that doesn't mean they aren't doing it while your back is turned. And once they get up to a certain age, they're basically given free rein to say whatever they like, and it's considered rude to even mention anything to them."
He shrugs a bit, loose and relaxed. "It's something you get used to, over time."
He should know - his hair is hardly what's considered a normal color here, but it's nothing he can help. He considered dying it black more than a few times when he was younger, just to quiet the whispers his better-than-human hearing always managed to pick up when he was out with his mother - more for her sake than for his, because at that point he could hardly have cared less what any humans thought of him. But she'd always loved it, said if she were braver, or younger, she would dye hers to match, and even now that she's gone, Kurama can't quite bring himself to cover it up.